I need to change the name of this blog though...I am not so much a freelance writer anymore...
This Monday I return to the elementary school life in Union City...Freelance writing didn't quite make the bill...I just want to support my family...so one way or another I'm trying to make that happen...besides I got a daughter that looks like Cindy Lou...so ain't no Grinch gonna steal my kids Christmas...I'll put a gun to his head first...Thanks Dad!
I've been back to church again and said fuck it...God is here...if you don't believe me oh well...I'm done arguing with myself about it, so I certainly won't argue with anyone else about it either...Knowing and believing in the truth of a mountain beyond comprehension is peaceful and more human than nihilism...if God was dead than so are we...and trust me the air I breath is fresh as ever..So in this losing myself I'm determined to find myself...I lost my blog somewhere and found it here in the palm of my hand...and if you read this I guess my words have made sense to you...
I stared at Orion's belt tonight and thought "holy shit, our entire solar system fits in between just two stars of his stars" that sucks...we're small...but we are big...we sit in the hand of God, so that's not a bad place to be... So what do we or I do with that? The best I can...
Take pictures, love beautiful Holly...(oh have I mentioned I stepped in a gold mine when I moved to NJ?)
Lets see I found my hot hot hot wonderful beautiful best friend beautiful Holly, gave life to Juliana Skye Campbell(well, played my part), and moved right near my parents, other family members, and NYC...ahhhh, as the Buddha might say!
So for the rest of my life I'm going to try my best to laugh like a mad man...and live with the sanity of man who knows God...which is quite frankly a bit of insanity...kind of like loving a woman....Ha! both = A man on fire...
So I will blog again and more often...I know seeing NYC on a daily basis from Union City will help...as will working with kids again...I love Union City and I'm glad to see the kids I worked with for a year and a half again...they are angels...Tomorrow I will write a poem if it kills me and share it here at some point...and Sunday I will be at church with my boys...it's been boys weekend, as Beautiful Holly went to Georgia to visit Melody with Heather and Jules...
We have played with moon-sand, ate spaghetti and tacos, saw Yogi Bear, ate candy, some video games, sledding, art time, snow shoveling, and have two days left...
In a couple of days I see my daughter and my gorgeous wife...How lucky am I?
You don't have a clue! if you do though I am happy for you...if you don't than well I hope you do someday soon...So what do I name my new blog...hmmmm...by tomorrow it will be it's new name...
For now I name my life lucky-n-poor...guess I'd rather be that than rich-n-poor...
Can't wait to see you both...hold you both...smell you both...my daughter and my wife....my life....
My boys and me...what a life...I fucking love it...
Live grand...can't wait to write a poem tomorrow....can't wait to see the Sun...can't wait to touch cold water on my hike...can't wait to touch water that breathes...The Universe is a cradle and I love the way it rocks...
My life is profound!!! I am in Awe!!!
